About Yenti

Ian T Howard Born in the village of Hawkeridge Wiltshire in March 1942 into a family of eight, memories of these early years can be dated to, June 6th 1944, I remember the sky filled with aircraft,. My Sister was born on the 22nd of June that year and made are family up to ten. Our family was Mother and Father four boys and four girls, so you can guess that we had a great time, though our style of life was limited to our income. I could read at a very early age of three, I think that this was the grounding for my imagination, and ability to write. My writing started more during my senior school years, with the entry of one of my bits, as I call them, into the school magazine, of Matravers School of Westbury Leigh Wiltshire. I joined the Royal Air Force at the age of 15, and started writing in an exercise book, this I still have, one of my poems in there is the Valley, made from early days of playing around the countryside, when a small hole in the ground became a canyon. . Over the years of writing and changes in life, having my own family grow up around me, and then the parting of the ways as some families do. Also the passing on of my parents, two sister's and two brother's, having their influence on my thoughts. Then remarrying into a loving state, that has Spiritual connections, my writing has evolved into a wide variety of works that reflect my interpretation of the things around, not only in a factual way, but sometimes with a deep philosophical outlook with a soul to each and everything. I have through the connection I have with the Spiritualism side of my present life, recorded a great number of talks with the Spirit world as they are related to me, most times through Anne my wife who is an International Medium. These talks with spirit are recorded from semi trance times, when there is a connection between the two worlds, mostley when the Spirit girl Sadie comes through to talk to us using the Mediums voice, there are other Spirits that come through but this will be clear as we carry on through the tapes day by day, I will leave you to be at peace with all things. Here is an intro to my wife Anne and the influences that spirit has on our lives and the way that the children communicate with me, Yours, Ian.T Anne's words on the spirit world:-

A Reason

There in the hush of the evening
I will be thinking of you.
Why can’t I let you go?
Keeping, is gentle on my soul.

I must not say the reason why
I will keep you till the day I die
Then in the glow of the after time
We will be joined again, just one mind,

With your hand in mine.
I see your smile light up the world
In that warmth of time.
Belonging to both of us.

I have to leave here once more,
But believe that in another world
I shall wait at the open door
To join in the twirls, for all to see

No need for hands we shall both be
A beauty that is our eternity
I know that we will be just fine
Two Spirits yours and mine.

One day before we have to journey on
I would just love to hear three words
From you to me, as we are both free.
Tethered by our own morality.

A new Day

A listless day yet there you are.
A memory or real they are similar
Something held as a flower to a child
Sweet essence flowing between two

I will not say those three words as some do
It is not for me to be in this our short time
We will be content as is that’s fine
But always know that I am where ever you go.

It has become a lovely day out there now
That I have sent this message somehow
Where sorrow recedes and joy comes in
To be able to bring you to mind again

Just know I am a part of you always

Hidden Love

Hidden Love

I sit here listening to soft music.
Spirits of the Isles, touches my soul.
Racing as silent tides toward my shore
Gathered, then gently left for all to see.

Thoughts of things gone by, touch me now,
visions of things to come satisfy a need.
Where are those voices that echo love
I need them now, to fulfil a space in time.

Comfort in knowing our love is safe.
That you and I loved without earthly ties.
Come sit a while with me, here as one.
Catch with me our love, because I care.

The gentle flow of our thoughts are divine
Touch those feelings as they intertwine
Whisper our love and our before times
Let them echo in our thoughts and minds.

Remind me softly of those secret days.
Of love remembered in a special way.
Talk of eternally embracing thoughts,
living as one, yet with a great divide.

Give to me a taste of things that will be.
Once yours and my souls are set free.
That time will no longer hamper our affection.
Differing for you and me, loves perception

Let us share our friends we have now known.
Why we cannot let them go, as we journey on
They will talk with us, in the echoes of time,
fearing we would leave any of them behind.

Far from the shore we can feel secure
Let our true love drift for evermore.
That we can send our thoughts out there.
Beyond the reef away from this daily care.

Stay a while, I feel I need to talk of more.
To talk to you of all things we have done.
It is hard to find a place where it all began
let your thoughts ring, rippling as sand.

I must rest my thoughts now, my little one,
another day unfurls loneliness has begun.
Always remember that I will love you so,
you are here, I can never, ever, let you go.

Ian.T xx

A reality told

There at a table one March day
Where love took me astray.
There in the darkened room
You shone like a rose in bloom.

Then why do I lose you each day?

Yet there after a little play
I had to leave you to go away
The love stayed as a second skin
A mantle to hide my love within

Then why do I lose you each day?

I have searched high and low
But it is inside you only glow
A sense of being gathers my soul
Many years now I have loved you so.

Then why do I lose you each day?

I awake your face clear in mind
Why did I leave you behind?
A physical being that was all.
Your spirit inside me does call.

Then why do I lose you each day?

I walk and talk to many a folk
There I laugh and tell a joke
I hope that the joke is not on me
Because I had to set you free.

Then why do I lose you each day?

I never lost you, did you not know
You are part of my very soul
One place in a far distant time
We will join your soul and mine.

Just call my name in whispers low
I will stand by your side you know
In eternity we will laugh and play.
A feeling, a colour you will know.

I love you so

A Quiet Day

My world had shrunk
It caught me by surprise
Horizons came closer
Yesterday so far away

Where did my space go?
My world had shrunk.
I tried to think of reasons
Did I stop looking around?

Friends no longer by my side
Children retreated to hide
My world had shrunk
Or was it me on the inside

I didn’t fear my journey’s end
Lonely though without my friends
What is it that makes me so small?
My world had shrunk

That’s all!!

A memory found

I touched your hand
Something changed
Never be normal again
How could this be
I had guarded my ways

Yet there you broke through
Days were spent
Talking and just being
Afraid to touch just feeling
Nothing stayed the same

I showed you a crystal
You stopped kicking stones
You tought me a peace
I would never be alone
This touch was passing

Together we couldn’t be
One wind cooled you
Another warmed me
The distance did grow
As a velvet moss on a tree

One side only could see
There held to face life’s storm
As your peace held my mind
I would never know
What I had left behind

Many years passed me by
Snow fell then the sun
Nothing could warm me
As you then had done
I hold you in my soul

Others come and go
They touch me just so
Always hidden from view
That long years can do
That memory of you

Will Stay

“A Longing Touch”

There in the glow of evening
I feel your touch in my senses
Then you close your form to me
I retouch as senses reel away

Just being, with nothing to compare
Soft silk, of skin against skin
Drifting minds on a journey new
I have found you, I am overwhelmed

Dreams made that float away
Cares dimmed for another day
Please, Please, just say you’ll stay
Ah! Your thoughts joined my way.

Touch and touch some more
Let dreams be fulfilled for us
To me I feel we have at last joined
Distance gone so has the time

How can I say the feelings flow?
I would drown, in gossamers touch
Inside my body melts slowly down
Converted into a smile no frown.

Should I ask you how you feel?
In whispers shared would I dare?
In this love of joining you know I care
A touch, a smile there’s a beauty there

If only this would last as a dream
An eternity without a seam
Pushing even the stars out of the way
We know we are so in love today.

Always

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There in my heart, I have felt many pains
Yet in my Spirit I knew the why’s of things.
Deep understanding of others, brush their souls
Live in their beings for a while you will feel.

Never be afraid of things you see in others
This is their battle and they must win
Let them lean on your shoulders, hold them
In your being there is infinite energy.

Never let your energy be used in any way
Let the universal energy bring you strength
Out there among all things, is a power house.
It is run by unconditional love always.

There but a thought away dwells forever.
All your yesterday’s todays and tomorrow’s
Will be there as you reach out to infinity
This belongs to you all, and will never change

No matter what or who you believe in,
Just walk within the goodness of being..

Memory

Memory

The ice was etched in perfect form
Snow like a gossamer gown
That has yet to be worn

Sky carved from an ebony block so true
Scattered with diamonds to make black, blue
Held within the visions glow

No matter that it was Ice and snow
A love that has always been
That warmth which purveyed this scene

For all time the grass would be green
The only thing that love could do
Was to create perfection for us two

To look in wonder lost in time
The moment stored deep within the mind
Here an eternity of time left behind

Etched forever in those vast spaces
As with this and many places
It mattered not that no one shared

That it was, and is, no matter who cared
That I was here with you.

Sespene

There in the darkness of many days
A light to my spirit shines true
Time our enemy, has kept this space
Distance bridged with thought each day

There is nothing that can stand in our way
A love of all things not touched just felt
Kindred spirits closed together and held
How can I call it a love of any kind?

It is a food to sustain my being
A happiness to feel at all times
What distance my soul screams
We cannot be held from each other

I bathe in eternal life of truth and love
I reach out and there touching is a part
A part of me that is an anchor always
Feelings as then, never changing.

If only this plain could bend a little
Where both ends would reach out
Then touch each other as we feel
There would be a brightness clear

It cannot be so my love we have to wait
I shall stand at the portal with open arms
There we shall walk again together
As there is no time, I see you there,

In Our Now.

Ian.T xx